What is the motto that informs my life? Question everything.
Read MoreBall conversations were mostly about the coronavirus. I told Alistair that the whole event felt like the opening scene of an apocalypse movie: we're dancing, we're drinking, we're ignoring the crisis!
Read MoreI've always wanted to be sophisticated. I day dream sometimes that New York will place the gift of sophistication on me like a halo, if I just keep making the effort.
Read MoreIf there was a way to see my footprints, I wondered if you'd see them making the same exact same path every day? The routine frightened me. Even the word as I said it to myself, routine, it felt like saying the word death.
Read MoreLast Monday, February 3 I flew to Paris and met a series of sunny and somewhat-warm days. I stayed at the Hotel Therese, on a quiet street next to the Palais Royal. I revisited a few of the places I knew from the first time I went to Paris, back when I was a frightened little 20-something. There are still things I am afraid of, sure, but now, they feel dwarfed.
Read MoreEvery so often you have a good interaction in New York. I used to spend time trying to pull the pleasantries out of people till I realized it was counterproductive. I scowl just like everyone else, even after they smile at me a few times, for good measure.
Read MoreWe walked to the library and I leaned into Alistair: "I'm persona non grata here," I laughed
Read MoreLast Saturday -- which was the longest day, a nine o'clock in the morning hair appointment, and a birthday party -- I went to my therapists office. A beautiful snow fell all day. I told her about the nightmares.
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